Today’s been a pretty chill day; jus at home relaxing & watching youtube videos with Beb. It’s pretty amazing how many talented dancers there are out there. They range from all ages, male or female. I couldn’t be more happier for them that they are fulfilling their dream, but I won’t lie… I do wish I coulda went down that road. I’ve been dancing since I was 5 and it was my life - up until the car accident. It’s not like I can jus get up and pick up where I left off, I mean I am physically unable to dance. Yeah I’m sure I can try and see how far my limits will take me, but I don’t wanna end up permanently being disabled for life. 

I did promise Beb that I would take a few workshops and see how I feel afterwards. I know I’ll be in pain though since even when I’m working that’s already hella killing me. Maybe I can try physical therapy? … again?! Either way, I’ve been feeling empty; like I was missing something in my life. But while watching the videos, I found myself happy and wishing I was up dancing again. *sighh. Well, let’s hope when we move to the bay area they’ll be offering some good workshops out there.